Wandering In Emails

Lately, I have been feeling like we are wandering aimlessly around in the mess of paperwork and emails. It is not really a sad or depressing state, but just where we are in the process. Waiting is not easy. I think about the Israelites who wandered in the desert for over 40 years. Just walking around the desert all day long following cloud by day and fire by night. Not that waiting 3 or 4 or even 20 weeks is even comparable to wandering without purpose for 40 years, but I feel like we are wandering around waiting to get into the promise land of adoption. We occasionally get a sign of hope like today Carrie discovered Russia's website that shows all orphans available for adoption. We found S on the site and it says he does have a sibling. So that discovery was like manna from the sky. Of course, we then were in contact with our agency and had this feeling of almost "lost paradise" when they told us we may not qualify financially to adopt from Russia. But unlike the Israelites, we know that God is in control and no matter what happens His will is greater than our own.